When I was diagnosed with breast cancer my life changed in an instant. My once clear path was now going 100 miles an hour into the pitch black unknown. I couldn’t stop nor change it. I was in the driver seat, yet I couldn’t steer back on course. My life was never going to be the same. I lost friends and refused to make new ones. I refused to let anyone in.
I lived an empty void of existence.
The day the doctor muttered the word remission my path changed yet again. I knew, however, at any moment it could change back. I needed to find myself and purpose in life.
One day it all changed. I found myself in a place most would look down on. A place where I wasn’t pitied or treated like a piece of glass. It’s was where I met him. Where I would find myself. This is my story and how I became Faith.
“Good to see you too Melody” I smiled at her as I sat down on my chair and pulled my makeup and wig out of my bag. I went straight to work covering my face in a layer of makeup. Dark black eyeliner with smoky eyes, I added a bright red lipstick to my lips. I took a double take and made sure that I was unrecognizable. Convinced that I was, I went to work at securing my wig to my head. Making sure it wouldn’t move. By the time I was satisfied with my choice of long black hair, I made my way to the bathroom. I wasn’t shy about people seeing me naked. I just couldn’t bring anyone to see what I was hiding underneath my shirt.
I stepped into a stall and shut the door. Pulling my shirt over my head and removing my bra. I applied the pasties scars that had once been my nipples. The right one first and then the left. I glanced down checking to make sure they were even before stepping out of the stall. I glanced in the bathroom mirror and smiled. They were perfect.
I finished getting ready in the dressing room before heading out on the floor. I made my way to the bar to pay my house fee and sign in. The music was blaring as I made my way over to the DJ booth to give him my music. I took a few minutes to glance around the dark room and check out the guys. First shift girls were still working so I handed the DJ my music and made my way back to the bar. I took a seat next to Melody who was talking to Katy the bartender.
So you want to know a little about me and get a sense of who I am. Well the first thing I can say is that I absolutely hate talking about myself. So bare with me as I let you in on who I am.
My name is Elizabeth Hayes and I am from the Midwest. I have a few things I just happen to obsess over those include Hot pink and Zebra print, Unicorns, and cupcakes, and Books, I love to read and get lost in a book. I have thought about writing for a long time now and finally started to put words down. Ashlee and I are both new at this and our first book Finding Salvation is going to be thrown out there for you all to read. I must say I am having a hard time with this. I am the type of person that likes to know the outcome before I do anything. I want to know that this is going loved by most of you. The thing is I know that this book is going to be hopefully liked by some, hopefully loved by some, hated by some and just ok to some and I think I am finally ok with that. I am stepping out of my comfort zone. I hear that is a good thing. But with everything time will tell. So there you go! If you want to know more just ask.